24 Weeks Tomorrow and Counting

 Well another week down and hopefully several more to go. I went to my most recent doctor's appointment yesterday and I actually got fairly good news this time. Everything looked good and there was nothing really to be concerned about. It's kind of like a crap shoot when I go to the doctor because I never know what he is going to say. I go in expecting the worst so when i get good news it's always a plus. The baby looked good and all of my vitals looked good. At least it was a better appointment than last week. Last week there was signs of blood in my uterus which meant that abruptions were still continuing to happen. The way I see it, as long as the baby is growing things are good. Plus I've got to keep that cervix high and tight.

I wish the baby and the pregnancy were the only things that I had to worry about at this point. Unfortunately I still have the overwhelming stress of not getting a paycheck soon. As I look at my two other angels sitting on the floor watching cartoons it breaks my heart to think that the nest egg we have put back for us is in jeopardy. It's not much but it's the most savings we have ever had and I was really beginning to feel like we were in a place where we were actually getting ahead. I'm sure I'm not the only mother out there that has the same fears and feelings, so I hold onto that to give me some sanity. If I felt like I was the only one in the world dealing with these problems I don't know what I would do. I still just focus on taking it one day at a time. And, it's not like I'm taking it lying down even though I should be. I have takens steps to ensure that I will have a job for at least another three months with benefits. Not that I would be earning a paycheck but I could maintain the benefits that I currently have. I also am hoping that through hubpages I will earn a little extra income soon. Plus I've really come to love hubpages. It has given me an outlet to vent my frustrations and relieve some stress. It has also given me a way to share my story so if there is someone else out there like me that we know that we are not alone. There are some other projects I am working on and I will share those with you when I have more details at a later date. Until then I will keep praying and depending on my Lord to help me through this situation. I pray everyday for the peace of mind to get me through this situation and so far so good. Plus I can't forget my husband, who is my knight in shining armour. He saves me everyday and is a huge pillar of strength for me. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't thank my lucky stars for him and I don't think I will ever take him for granted again.

So for now I am staying strong, cervix and all. Hopefully in the weeks to come I will have nothing but good news to share with you. In the meantime if there is anyone out there that has a similar story or an experience to share please do. Until next time.....